I have always loved to keep journals of my feelings tucked away, embarrassed that someone might think I am too vulnerable or to melancholic perhaps to express it in any other way. Years have gone by and I am now revisiting them as I finally have enough love for myself that I am no longer ashamed of the feelings that were put into words at different moments in my life. That makes me the confident woman I am today, not afraid to face the world with my vulnerability.
Today I have decided not to be afraid of showing myself to the world, going forward. People will have to accept me for who I am or who I am not. My intense care for others, my giving personality, my selfless actions or spontaneous outburst….. it’s all made me who I am today. It’s my purpose to reach out to those that need a nudge to a different direction or an affirmation of their current circumstances .
Each day I will bust out a different journal entry from my past, in no particular order, a different heartfelt opinion about the circumstances I found myself in, during a time where there was either joy, pain, knowledge, or everything at once. As painful or personal as it may have been, it was felt intensely and with no regret. Looking back through each moment, every single piece of that moment lived, is the makeup of what I am today and has helped me see how far I have come and how much I have grown as a person. It may help someone see a different perspective of what may be going on in their own lives and help them grow in their journey. Whatever it does or doesn’t do, I will have said my truth as authentically as I could possibly be. This is me. Welcome to my world with all the joy, the pain and the lessons learned.
Feel free to call me out or add to my journey. I am open and will always be honest about where I am headed. I am proud of my personal growth thus far and hope to help others find their own as well.
joy.pain.knowledge. 