I have been friends with this girlfriend for almost 10 years now. I met her in church and our boys grew up together. She was my best friend, but for some reason, we were not seeing eye to eye during my divorce and I wasn’t able to show her how much I needed her nor was she able to understand how she could help me….so I retracted, and left her out of my life. After a few months I was able to take a step back and put myself together. I was missing our friendship and wanted to make things right. She had removed me from all social media, but she was more than my actual sister and I couldn’t leave the situation as it was. I decided to write her a letter:
Hate me all you want but I will never stop loving you. You can remove me from all your social media, but I will still be here in flesh. Might not make any difference for you but I do care about you! I hope you are happy with your life and are accomplishing all your dreams! I wish nothing but the best for you.
If you ever want to talk, I’ll be here for you. Life is too short to keep grudges.
I have learned so much with the tough experiences I have endured these last few years and have missed out on so many things in my life because of it. But I am still here, standing strong, missing your friendship.
I am sorry for all I put you through, sorry for the silence, sorry for the pain, perhaps.
I have learned that the feelings people portray on others are the reflections of their own turmoil that only they can resolve for themselves. Not gonna make excuses, but I was in a very dark place in my life and it hurt so much that nothing made me happy. I was unhappy with myself.
I have a deeper understanding of ME now and am becoming a better person each day. My life isn’t perfect and I am not perfect by any means, but I believe there are great things in store for my life and yours.
Hopefully we can connect someday and move forward from the hurt.
I love you.
Here for you always.
-elise
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